said boyfriend is fine with this title, so im upset because i actually wanted to piss him off... cause some drama or sumn to spice things up. (my therapist also said i should stop seeking drama but where’s the fun in that?)1 but we can’t have everything we want in life. n trust me i Kno That.
my proof? im unemployed n poor n too depressed to do anything<333333
my solution? lay around n binge bad girls club until boyfriend has enough n forces me to blog about the nothingness in my life.
its partly great bc now i kno they love me n think im someone people should read abt (boyfriend has big brain obvi) but the other half sucks.
idk how to write when im stuck in limbo. u see, i jus graduated from college which is way different than high school bc i can’t jus fuck around anymore. this summer i was supposed to have turned into a real adult with a 9-5 n 401k, but jobs haven’t called me back.2 so i can’t even pretend 2 have my shit together.
its more than jus the job thing too. im in between apartments atm, moving in with boyfriend, moving in with bestie from la, changing therapists/psychiatrists, having unusual body issues, attempting professional writing, trying 2 stop drinking, adapting to no schedule lifestyle, etc etc etc
i kno i want to write. well i think i do. but coming up with ideas, sticking to them for more than a paragraph, being vulnerable, finding an outlet/community, reading everything by everyone, n believing i have talent is A Lot.
thats like why this sub stack exist, but i feel like i even did this post wrong
whatevzzzz, welcome 2 da chaos >;)3
xoxoxoxoo
note 4 therapist: im kidding! im trying to b Good i swear! this is all 4 comedic purposes!
hellooooo can’t u tell im a / serious / writer with a / highly academic degree / from the most expensive school in the city. wha more do I need?!??!????!!!
my apologies… similar long form shit posts will def b continued